We, each one of us, are capable of So Much Awesome. You get that, when each of us is like, totally made in God’s image. All that free will and stuff that we have. The ability we have to Choose (even if sometimes – OK, almost always – it seems like we don’t).
The gift of Choice. Totally a God thing. Pretty cool. Awesomeness just comes with the territory of being able to Choose. We’re born to it.
And it’s what we choose to do with our God-given Awesome – whether we choose to use it for better or for worse, especially for ourselves – that’s what determines where we find ourselves at any given point in time.
What I choose, what I want, is for my God-given Awesome to be used for good.
Good for myself, and good for others.
What I want, is to be the God’s Girl I know I was always meant to be…to bring life from what should have been death, joy from what should have been sorrow, blessing from what should have been grief, hope from what should have been despair, healing from what should have been heartbreak, wholeness from what should have been brokenness, beauty from what should have been ashes. Not only in my life, but in the lives of those whose path crosses mine.
What I want, is to keep learning. There is still so much I have to learn. In order for my God-given Awesome to be able to be used for good. I want to be healthy and well from the inside out and to live every part of the life that I was born for.
What I want, is to be whole enough to love with my whole heart, giving every part of myself, whilst still standing strong in who I am, with no shame. No apology. And no fear.
That’s what I want. And that’s what I’m fighting for. I have to fight for it because none of it comes naturally to me. I was born into brokenness so the pursuit of wholeness takes a whole bunch of concentration, and effort. To re-learn, and re-wire. But so worth the effort. And so awesome that it’s even possible. To come from brokenness and to be able to choose to pursue wholeness. For God’s best. In every part.
Life. Love. God. Be warned. I am still coming for You. I will Hunt You Down and I will Wrestle You To The Ground and I will Have You, more and more of You. I will do this until the day I die.
Every day, every moment, is another step closer to You. Even though I know You’re with me in this, You’re even on the sidelines cheering me towards this…that even as I am pursuing You, You are pursuing me…I want more. I want more, and more, and more, of You.
Because I’m thinking a girl can never have too much Life. Or too much Love. Or – for me at least, being a God’s Girl and all – too much of God. Amirite?
Life. Love. God. Don’t think for a moment that I am letting You out of my sight…even when it seems like nothing is happening with You – especially when it seems like nothing is happening with You – something is So Happening With You 🙂